missing something

Though how hard you try and how far you go.you always miss that someone special . though you pretend that you are happy and going good but its just that there is always something deep inside your heart that keeps poking you all the time and especially sometimes when you are alone and listening to some classic track..

This post i am writing after a long time and its only because after so many days that cold hardcore layer got off from my heart while i was listening to "here without you baby-3 doors down".superb song..just too good.

What i have seen is love strikes us exactly at the time when we don't need it and it leaves us when we are addicted to it and its not the end of the story my friend slowly and steadily when you gain your senses when you are starting to build walls around your heart and just exactly when the construction is about to finish such songs and memories leads to the debacle of those walls..bull shit..and again you get back to those memories.and many a times it hurts you

But i guess whatever happens it happens for a reason.you can control your mind but not your heart for sure.these memories stays forever within your heart and all you could do is just smile at those and say it to yourself.."ah at least i got to know myself that i can love someone so much,can really care for someone more than me,i am not selfish i am a lover and at the end its destiny which separated us .".

and now after writing this i am so much relaxed but for me there are just 4 words--"tears dried ,heart died"..

awesome blossom day

too too too happy today..really had an amazing day ..day full of fun,masti..all my friends at my place and really had fun today...superb...total masti

thanks to sonal,ishita,ankur,richa,ankit, and ofcourse sweety hahaha..this is my name but as if for now i need to write hers..lolzzzzz..really played cards,sung together..played uno..watched watched...even we had a betting on match...popcorn..coke everything we had

sonal joined us later..and really we had a blast today..followed by lunch...only thing left was photo session//it should have been there...

never mind this is just a beginning ..many more to go..fun has just begun..surely would be getting many more chances...in short the day was too good..

i wish

with each passing day,

i ask for your love everytime i pray..

tears drizzling through my eyes every night,

but smile comes just by seeing your sight..

hard for me to wait on,

but even harder to go on....

stars shimmering in this twilight,

i see you coming like an angel in white..

holding my hand you made me warm,

here we are in our own realm...

together i wanna fly like a free bird,

and want to unleash this whole damn world....

my eyes closed and i could see you there,

lying on to me right here..

resting in your arms is making me lazy,

feeling your touch and i am going crazy..

aroma of yours seduces me towards you,

now its arduous for me to hold on to you..

your pink soft lips is tempting me now,

wish i could kiss them some how....

unkempt hair scathed all round your face,

forever in my arms i could embrace..

everytime i look in your eyes,

i get lost in this paradise..

moon seems so blue,

my focus is now only you..

wish i could stop this moment forever,

and remain like this now and ever..

eyes open!!now i am out of this illusion,

but that was a stupendous imagination..

i wish it happens once in my life,

and this would be the best moment of my life!!!

will you be my valentine

today begins with an enchanting sunlight,

love swells in every sight..

i wonder whats special this day,

oh gosh!! calender shows its a valentine's day..

all set and i looks like a debonair,

heart yelling "DUDE!! love is in the air"....

time to bawl my heart out,

seizing emotions have started to breakout..

today lemme break free the chain,

or else i will go insane..

baby!i love you to the core of my heart,

feelings for you i cant thwart....

for all the love you brought to my life,

i shud ask!!"will you be my wife"??..

for all the wrongs you made right,

just wanna say always my guiding light..

for all the care you spend to me,

can you lend your heart to me?????

the divine world i see in your eyes,

everytime i get drown in this abyss..

the clutch of your hand says it all,

you'll catch me up whenever i fall..

the smile on your face makes my world go round,

in your love i am strongly bound....

i promise to never let you cry,

will be with you untill my blood gets dry..

i promise to tease you all the time,

just like adding soda to lime..(this is stupid)

embrace me and never let me go dear,

open ur arms coz my heaven falls there....

i'll be your raincoat when it rains,

you are my drug and my cocain..

bestow me your tears,

now you dont have to fear..

cuddle me and let this love grew,

lemme see my dream come true....

i wanna fight with you over friday night movie,

i wanna date you everyday and make it bloomy..

without you its impossible for me to outlive,

i want to be with you for as long as we shall live..

today let the my love survive,

will u be my valentine for the rest of my life???

dedicated to a frnd

across the street i was walking alone,

he came to my life and i was blown..

he held my hand so tight,

my gloomy life turns so bright..

i never felt this way before,

in his arms i walked alongshore....

time we spend together were blissful,

those memories are now so tearful..

you were with me from dawn to dusk,

now neither its you nor your musk..

emptiness is what i feel inside,

this soulmate is always by my side....

with you i was so carefree,

now i shiver like a last leaf on a decaying tree..

why did you do this to me,

i loved you to the acme..

i spend my eve in solitary mulling,

dribbling tears and emotions are freezing....

if loving you was a crime,

i shall be convicted with a estranged lifetime..

dad reproached me,

mom poked me..

everyone left me,

but i stood up for "U & ME"..

i renounced my life for you,

wholeheartedly i loved you..

what went wrong between us i dunno,

but now we both should let it go..

now i am living in highest ecstasy,

you are stil my greatest fantasy....

time we spend apart will let us know,

space between us might melt like a snow..

in my nightmares i always scream,

but as if for now i shall live my dream..