kishi...

rok na tu khud ko aaj yun,
ki dil aaj beimaan hua hai!!
kehde dil me tere jo bi hai,
ki rab aaj meherbaan hua hai!!!!


baahon me ki de meri tanhai ko sukoon is qadar,
ki firta rehta hun khaanabadoshon sa main raat bhar!!
bhuja de pyaas meri chaahat ki yun,
ki fir kisi or ki chaah ki mujhe aas na rahe!!!!


kho jaane de in aankhon me mujhe yun,
ki khud ko dhundhne ki koi ummed na bache!!
basa lun tere jism ki khushboo apni saanson me,
ki fir kabhi saans na loon!!!!


teri julfon ki chaaon me panaah jo mil jaaye thodi,
ki fir koi or aasraa na maangu!!
mehsoos karne de tere jism ki gehrai ko,
ki tan man merabheeg jaaye tere aagosh me aane se!!!!


tod de saari bandishein ki aaj tu mujhe
seene se lagale, aankhon me basa le , dil me chupa le!!
aaj gum ho jaayen hum apni duniya me kahin,
qaid karlen us lamhe ko or do jism ek jaan ban jaayen !!!!

I AM ALIVE NOW

OH YES I AM ALIVE NOW!!
CAN FEEL MY HEARTBEATS SOMEHOW
I CAN DREAM ONCE AGAIN
LIFE IS RESURRECTED NOW

THOUGH ITS TOO EARLY TO SAY
BUT I CAN FEEL IT INSIDE
FREQUENCY MATCHED
SHE CAN SPEAK UP MY MIND

LOST IN HER THOUGHTS
SINGING,DANCING,SMILING
IS ALL I AM UPTO THESE DAYS

HER BEAUTY SCATTERED ALL MY MIND
Red and White CAUGHT MY SITE
DRIVEN BY HER MAGIC
MY FUTURE LOOKING BRIGHT

SHE CAME TO ME AS A SOUL SAVER
I HOPE THIS TIME ITS FOREVER
CAN FEEL MY HEARTBEATS NOW
ALAS I AM ALIVE NOW!!!! 

HAPPY MONSOON

Thundering clouds

Drizzling rain

Struck by lighting

My poetic spirit regained

View outside my window

Couldn’t be more serene

Sound of a rain

Upon a window pane

Escalates my heart beat

My mind getting quenched

Cup of mocha

Grasping my hands

Smells like heaven

I am lost in my dreams

Listening to its beat,

Rain has its own music

Eyes closed

Memories flashing back

Thinking of my love

My soul gets drenched

Every drop of rain

Escalating my emotions

Cuddling, fondling

Caressing kissing

Rain has set me on fire

You are all I desire

Eyes opened

Dream came to an end

Season of love

Always a special one

Finally the monsoon has arrived

Let’s go on a love ride

 ---------- HAPPY MONSOON------------

salute to all the ladies

You are a best friend being a sister,

You are a hope being a daughter,

You are a goddess being a mother..

You are a soul mate being a life partner..

You carry us in your womb,

And we call you our mom..

When things go blue,

We get to know your value….

Whatever we do,

Wherever we go..

How much we hide,

Fact is we all need you….

Without you world seems so loathed,

Deep inside us there lies a kid..

being a teacher,

you guide us to the right track…

Ever this world has been created,

You have been unequally treated..

Solitude became your lone mate,

Despite you took it as your fate….

but now things have changed,

and the song has been sung..

now you have made your choice

and have raised your voice,

you have always held us in peace,

and have been living with dis-ease..

Time for you to now break free,

and live your life in full ecstasy….

Salute to all the ladies out there,

Without you we would have been no where..

you created us and we owe it to you,

but we can't pay this debt whatever we do.....

THE PROPOSAL

Today!! Bending on my knees,

With my heart melting like a cheese..

I ask for your hand,

Until I find myself under the sand….

Proposing you is not so easy,

Since you keep yourself so busy..

Today I just want to bawl my heart out,

And yes I want to cry it aloud..

Let the whole world hear today,

Love for you will thrive everyday..

My love for you is immortal,

Your love for me is really vital….

I promise to be with you forever,

Until those wrinkles grows deeper..

You have been my guiding light always,

Now time for me to love you in many ways….

So let me take you to ecstasy,

Let’s live our own fantasy..

I promise you I won’t hurt you ever,

I propose you to be my valentine forever…

oh baby!!

things seems to be clear

as it comes another year..

last one was a gloomy one.

but good for me on a long run...

i gotta this feeling somehow,

you gotta be with me now..

these winters seems to be usual,

but warmth of yours making me feel unusual..

love seems to have corroded my mind,

you have somehow made me blind..

i like to be with you,

like to walk beside you,

touch of yours brings me to ecstasy,

baby! let me take you to our own galaxy..

i can cross miles just to be with you,

will never sleep just to see you....

baby! spell that you have cast,

never leave you until i breath my last..

signs of love you show it to me,

it takes me to acme..

all i want in ma life is u,

since ur one among those few..

wanna rap you in my arms in this cold,

for me you will never get old...

though we are still best mates,

but u otta open your heart gates..

this feeling of mine i just cany hide,

but i guess i'll have to survive....

i am afraid to loose you,

i am best when m with you..

baby lets start our lives together,

and will never look backwards..

tanha rehna achcha lagta hai

tanha rehna yun achcha lagta hai,

khud se baat krna suchcha lagta hai..

dilon k armaan machal rahe hain,

ashq aankhon se tapak rahe hain..

zindagi ki bheed me kahin kho se gaye hain,

behete dariye me kahin beh se gaye hain....

aaj khud se hui mulaqat to ye ehsaas hua,

apno k beech bhi main kitna tanha hua....

zindagi aaj is dorahe pe laaye hai,

na chahne ka junoon hai na milne ki aas hai..

tham sa gaya hai kahin meri khwaishon ka caravan,

hum hue jogii jag hua begaana..

kaun apna haai,kaun paraya hai,

ye sab to ek moh maaya hai..

jeevan ka asli saar to koi na jaana,

bhadte rehna tu kahin ruk na jaana....

sukun ka ab ye aalam din-o-raat hai

yun hi beet jaye zindagi to kya baat hai,

islye ab tanha rehna achcha lagta hai,

khud se baatein krna sachcha lagta hai

Lonely girl..final part

Phone line got disconnected,

They parted their ways.

Unleashing her new life,

That kept adding on days….

24x7 gossips, late night babble,

But now sporadically they talk.

Both started missing each other,

Reminiscing the time when they use to rock..

Emotions hard to control,

Teddy started to cut loose..

Lost in her thoughts,

Now his only mate is booze….

Girl too started missing teddy,

Waiting for some miracle to happen..

Teddy got posted in the same city,

Their tryst was supposed to be destined….

Bantering! Fighting! Giggling,

All became a part of their daily drill..

Just as the things were going smooth,

Here it comes another twist in the tail….

Her love is back into her life,

And now she is falling for him..

Seeing this teddy’s heart tore apart,

his merry life suddenly got dim….

Girl got her love back,

Teddy remained her friend..

Destiny played its another cruel game,

Now teddy’s heart can never be mend….

Girl together with her love,

Flew away in a copter..

Taking all the memories along with her,

And they both(girl and her love) lived happily ever after..

tanha chal diye

tanha chal diya hun main,

us raah pe jiske koi manzil nahin..

jaana bahut door hai mujhe,

safar mushkil hai koi saathi bhi nahin....

yaadein uski dil me liye ,

chal pada hai mera carwaan..

tasveer uski aankhon me basaye,

safar to hoga aasaan....

kabhi to yaad karte honge wo ,

tanhai me yunhi sochta hun main..

labon se jab lete honge mera naam,

kho jaate honge meri yaadon mein....

kabhi raha karta tha haathon,

me jaam uske naam ka..

wo mehfil kain kho si gaye,

na raha ab main kise kaam ka....

zakhm dye us bedard ne kuch is tarah,

maikhane hmara aasra sa ban gaya..

hisaab karne chale unke bewafai ka,

kambhakt jeevan hi ye kam pad gaya....

aaj lete hain hum qabar me apni,

odhe apni chahat ka kafan..

intezaar me hai unke ki wo aayegi,

or kar degi hamehsa k lye hume dafan....

best and worse

I woke up this day as usual,

But aura around me seems unusual.

Half opened eyes and m all lazy,

Stretching my arms and things looked hazy.

Look at the weather outside,

Rain has engulfed my sight…

Scene outside looked like heaven,

And I feel myself on cloud no seven….

Rain dancing down and I held one drop of it,

Closed my eyes and listened to its beat.

Memories of past flashed through my sight,

A tear rolled down like a falling kite….

Recalling those days of yore,

Under rain!!! I was embracing her.

Divine feeling of being in her arms,

She drugged me with her charms.

She was looking sizzling in her frock,

I was falling for her with every rain drop….

Hairs scathed all round her face,

Lips trembling and she looked up in space.

Suddenly a thunderstorm strikes and she held me tight,

In her eyes I saw black shinning bright.

“I LOVE YOU”, she murmured,

Before I could say anything she was murdered…

Blood ran from her head to her neck,

Suddenly my whole life was wrecked.

I took her to the hospital gate,

But it was already too late.

On my hand still her blood slops,

And now I am just a living corpse..

Nothing is permanent in life,

Best could turn into worse anytime.

Be happy for what you wished happened,

Memories are what you will always reckon…..

For me that was the best and the worst day,

I smile and I cry remembering that rainy day….

missing something

Though how hard you try and how far you go.you always miss that someone special . though you pretend that you are happy and going good but its just that there is always something deep inside your heart that keeps poking you all the time and especially sometimes when you are alone and listening to some classic track..

This post i am writing after a long time and its only because after so many days that cold hardcore layer got off from my heart while i was listening to "here without you baby-3 doors down".superb song..just too good.

What i have seen is love strikes us exactly at the time when we don't need it and it leaves us when we are addicted to it and its not the end of the story my friend slowly and steadily when you gain your senses when you are starting to build walls around your heart and just exactly when the construction is about to finish such songs and memories leads to the debacle of those walls..bull shit..and again you get back to those memories.and many a times it hurts you

But i guess whatever happens it happens for a reason.you can control your mind but not your heart for sure.these memories stays forever within your heart and all you could do is just smile at those and say it to yourself.."ah at least i got to know myself that i can love someone so much,can really care for someone more than me,i am not selfish i am a lover and at the end its destiny which separated us .".

and now after writing this i am so much relaxed but for me there are just 4 words--"tears dried ,heart died"..

awesome blossom day

too too too happy today..really had an amazing day ..day full of fun,masti..all my friends at my place and really had fun today...superb...total masti

thanks to sonal,ishita,ankur,richa,ankit, and ofcourse sweety hahaha..this is my name but as if for now i need to write hers..lolzzzzz..really played cards,sung together..played uno..watched watched...even we had a betting on match...popcorn..coke everything we had

sonal joined us later..and really we had a blast today..followed by lunch...only thing left was photo session//it should have been there...

never mind this is just a beginning ..many more to go..fun has just begun..surely would be getting many more chances...in short the day was too good..

i wish

with each passing day,

i ask for your love everytime i pray..

tears drizzling through my eyes every night,

but smile comes just by seeing your sight..

hard for me to wait on,

but even harder to go on....

stars shimmering in this twilight,

i see you coming like an angel in white..

holding my hand you made me warm,

here we are in our own realm...

together i wanna fly like a free bird,

and want to unleash this whole damn world....

my eyes closed and i could see you there,

lying on to me right here..

resting in your arms is making me lazy,

feeling your touch and i am going crazy..

aroma of yours seduces me towards you,

now its arduous for me to hold on to you..

your pink soft lips is tempting me now,

wish i could kiss them some how....

unkempt hair scathed all round your face,

forever in my arms i could embrace..

everytime i look in your eyes,

i get lost in this paradise..

moon seems so blue,

my focus is now only you..

wish i could stop this moment forever,

and remain like this now and ever..

eyes open!!now i am out of this illusion,

but that was a stupendous imagination..

i wish it happens once in my life,

and this would be the best moment of my life!!!

will you be my valentine

today begins with an enchanting sunlight,

love swells in every sight..

i wonder whats special this day,

oh gosh!! calender shows its a valentine's day..

all set and i looks like a debonair,

heart yelling "DUDE!! love is in the air"....

time to bawl my heart out,

seizing emotions have started to breakout..

today lemme break free the chain,

or else i will go insane..

baby!i love you to the core of my heart,

feelings for you i cant thwart....

for all the love you brought to my life,

i shud ask!!"will you be my wife"??..

for all the wrongs you made right,

just wanna say always my guiding light..

for all the care you spend to me,

can you lend your heart to me?????

the divine world i see in your eyes,

everytime i get drown in this abyss..

the clutch of your hand says it all,

you'll catch me up whenever i fall..

the smile on your face makes my world go round,

in your love i am strongly bound....

i promise to never let you cry,

will be with you untill my blood gets dry..

i promise to tease you all the time,

just like adding soda to lime..(this is stupid)

embrace me and never let me go dear,

open ur arms coz my heaven falls there....

i'll be your raincoat when it rains,

you are my drug and my cocain..

bestow me your tears,

now you dont have to fear..

cuddle me and let this love grew,

lemme see my dream come true....

i wanna fight with you over friday night movie,

i wanna date you everyday and make it bloomy..

without you its impossible for me to outlive,

i want to be with you for as long as we shall live..

today let the my love survive,

will u be my valentine for the rest of my life???

dedicated to a frnd

across the street i was walking alone,

he came to my life and i was blown..

he held my hand so tight,

my gloomy life turns so bright..

i never felt this way before,

in his arms i walked alongshore....

time we spend together were blissful,

those memories are now so tearful..

you were with me from dawn to dusk,

now neither its you nor your musk..

emptiness is what i feel inside,

this soulmate is always by my side....

with you i was so carefree,

now i shiver like a last leaf on a decaying tree..

why did you do this to me,

i loved you to the acme..

i spend my eve in solitary mulling,

dribbling tears and emotions are freezing....

if loving you was a crime,

i shall be convicted with a estranged lifetime..

dad reproached me,

mom poked me..

everyone left me,

but i stood up for "U & ME"..

i renounced my life for you,

wholeheartedly i loved you..

what went wrong between us i dunno,

but now we both should let it go..

now i am living in highest ecstasy,

you are stil my greatest fantasy....

time we spend apart will let us know,

space between us might melt like a snow..

in my nightmares i always scream,

but as if for now i shall live my dream..

walking ..

engulfed with water all round,

here i am standing all alone on wet slippery ground...

no one to hold my hand,

no one to guide my way...

darkness prevailing like hell,

it has gelled with me so well...

lot lies within my heart,

alone in my room i have always cried...

loneliness i feel inside,

this has always been by my side...

the way i feel now and ever,

this emptiness will be there forever...

but this is life i have to move on,

carrying all the emotions i have to go on...

every time i says this to myself,

oh nikhil!!! don't torture yourself...

so inside my heart revolver a cyclone,

and alas i am walking all alone...........

jab saath ho tum

teri khuli julfon k saaye me kho jaane ko jee chahta hai,

fir unhe apne haathon se sanwarne ki adaa dkh mera man machal sa jaata hai...

shaak k patte pe pe rkhi os ki boond ki tarah h teri ye muskurahat.

inhe dkh zindagi se roobru hone ki hoti hai chaahat...

teri jhuki jhuki si palkein krte hain kuch ishaara,

mere jeevan ka ab tu hi hai ek maatra sahara...

dabe dabe se tere ye hothon k lafz,

kehte hain mujhse sada rahe tu mera hi bus...

nazdikiyon se mere tera ghabra sa jaana,

yun mera saath chodh tu kabhi na jaana...

teri rooh ki mehek abhi tak meri saanson me jawan hai,

ab tu mera pehla or akhiri jahan hai..............

for you

For all the meaning you brought to my life,

for all the changes i can feel inside.....

for all the love i see around,

with you i can always go merry-o-round....

for all the things you did to me,

just wanna say please never ever leave me....

maybe i am not good enough for you,

but i will always be there with you.....

i will be your cover when it rains,

and never give you any pain.....

with you by my side i am on cloud no nine,

hence i will love you till the last breath of mine.........

shinning star

deep within your heart still lies a pain,

in spite of all my effort everything has gone into vain...

why don't you get over it,

why the hell you think about that piece of shit...

i know its hard for you,

but you need to get this through...

you are itself a source of smile to others,

Oh baby!!! please don't wither....

maybe this is not the right time,

but i ought to say please be mine...

i will never ever let you cry,

and will be with you until the day i die...

let this pain vanish out of your mind,

so that these lips of yours may grin...

you are born to fly high up in the sky,

then why don't you give another try...

go out and shine like a pearl,

and show that you are still the most lovable girl in this world.....

tere liye......

dil me machal raha hai ek armaan,

na raha tere deedar k siwa koi kaam...

ek kasak si reh gaye hai mere man me,

paa k bhi na ab tak paaya tujhe is dil ne....

kaise kahun kitna pyar hai mujhe tujhse,

kahin na kahin tere dil ko bhi hai pyar mujhse..

tera hi sajda krta hun din o raat,

fir bhi in hothon se keh na paun main wo baat....

yaadon me teri is tarah kho jaata hun,

or fir hosh me na aane ki chah rkhta hun...

chaha hai tujhe apni har saans se zyada,

tere siwa mujhe koi or na bhaata...

har dua har jeet hai adhuri ab tere bin,

ise ummed pe hun ki meri hogi tu bhi ek din...

teri hothon ki muskurahat ki hifazat main krunga,

teri aansuon se bagawat main krunga..

gam se tu kabhi na roobru ho,,

khushiyan itne tere aangan me faila dena chhta hun

tera chehra dekh lun to din ban jaata hai,

tujhe baat na krun to dil tadap sa jaata hai....

is qadar ab teri aadat se ho chuki hai,

mere zindagi ab meri nhn balki teri ho chuki hai....